LIDC, I can certainly understand your temptation and your logic. It would seem on the surface that IF you could cut safely (depends on whether you find yourself having to go progessively deeper to get the same relief over time) and IF you could keep it hidden (doubtful), then it would be safer than having to potentially deal with liver damage. But the big problem is when others inevitably find out. They will freak. They will think you're completely nuts. Having the cops called on you, your kids taken away (if you have any), getting thrown in the hospital against your will- all are very real possibilities if you get found out (I've personally experienced all of these). And potentially living with a stigma for a very long time. Losing family and friends over it. So NOT worth it. It seems insane that people consider liver damage far more socially acceptable but hey, I don't get to make up what society considers acceptable. Unfortunately my drinking has gone up since I stopped cutting so I understand the unfortunate trap of simply making an alternative unhealthy choice. But as others have said here, there are healthier choices. Somebody made reference to the 'runners' high. VERY effective for me. It got me through a forty year depression. And it's fast acting and can be done at anytime of the day (or night if you're really desperate...been there done that...and it helped - just be careful). It only stopped losing some of its effect after multiple crises hit me all at once in the past four years.

So my suggestion on the cutting...just don't go there.

I wish you well.