Not sure Where to start .... Anyone know what im talking about? As a adolescent I used to sleep walk then what turned into a form of sleep I call Half awake/ Half asleep, could see my dream and the room i was in at the same time, talking, interacting until i was unable to move, breathe, scream, a heavy weight had a form of control over me. I used to pray in my head to be able to move until i would come out of a paralyzed state. When i turned 17 I began having reoccurances of sleep issues along side unable to keep myself awake in the day time. Hard to explain but it feels as though I have 30 pound weights on my wrist neck and head, ankles and eyes. This never ending feeling i HAVE TO lay down or sleep. It almost hurts to keep awake, and the only way to remove the weights is lay down or sleep. folllowing..... i begin to cry wishing i could feel normal in the daytime like i did when i was 8 yrs old. I have had periods of sleeping approx 21 hours a day and those 3 hours awake where beyond difficult. Example. having to sway side to side while brushing my teeth or showering as i stuggled to hold my eyes open and simply understand what was happening around me. Their is no reality everything is a bad blurrred illusion and nothing seems real. During this time i was diagnosed with adult ADD and was placed on adderal, been taking it for 4 years and 60%of symptoms found relief but every day is a struggle. What is wrong with me? Any help? Tired of being tired, tired of the nightmares, tired of feeling this cool rush throughout my body that hits me and i am out like a light. Help!