aw sweetie im so sorry to hear all of this stuff.....but most importantly, you are not a joke. you are a overworked, stressed out, hard working mother and wife who is not appreciated the way you should be...its no wonder you are exhausted....but that doesnt make you a joke...it makes you human....humans get tired and sometimes it just gets to be too much....and you can only do so much.....and its even harder I think, when you see the person who is supposed to be your partner, just sitting there coasting while you are barely keeping your head above water....if there is no way for you to sit down with your husband and seriously talk, then you are going to have to put him on the back burned for now and do what is best for you and for your children and come back to him later. We all know if mom isnt happy...no one is happy...