I had to look this up due to a moment of total brain malfunction. So I am going to take engagement to mean participation. Are you involved in your treatment. How etc.

My level of engagement varies. There are weeks where I go in not wanting to be there or with nothing planned. On the whole though, I am working to move forward. Sometimes I bring in lists of topics for th day. Sometimes it's all in my head. I am trying really hard to say things in the moment as they come to mind.

A lot of it is still very awkward for me especially when we're talking about the relationship