Hi everyone! Sorry I havent posted in awhile. I usually get on here more when Im at work (I work nights all by my lonesome) and am still trying to not sleep all day....) Something has been on my mind and wanted to get some thoughts on it....

Are any of you ever scared that you will become a statistic of suicide? Sorry to ask this so bluntly.....I just read so many things about Bi-polar and the suicide rates are so high....and I wont lie that I havent had thoughts, but would never, ever carry them out....but Im sure those people had those same thoughts at some point in time....and then the switch just flipped.....Does there come a point with all of the medications, the changing of medications, the doc appointments, the sleeping, the insomnia, the guilt, and all of the other negativity that bi-polar causes, that you have just had enough, and your switch flips....evidentally we will all have this disease the rest of our life....do you ever worry that it will get the better of you? I try not to worry, but you cant help it...and of course part of the work that I do for a living, you cant help but be aware of it (I work for the coroner's office). My meds are good for now, and of course I try to live in the now, but its always there in the back of my mind.....anyone else out there with thoughts on this?