Hello XrayDiva!

I think about it too. In fact, I attempted it years ago and almost became one of those statistics. I think the realization that this bipolar will be a part of us for the rest of our lives is a scary thing. I think its perfectly natural to be scared, because yes sometimes the world feels like it will collapse in around us.

I am not scared anymore though. I survived the suicide attempt for a reason. To live. I don't know what caused me to be saved but I am alive and my family is thankful for it. I enjoy life for the most part, being stable on my meds, but I constantly question my life and what is the purpose for it because I am in a perpetual state of boredom and insomnia.

But the fear my friend, will not last. I guess its different for me because I attempted it already and saw the expressions on my young sister's and mom's faces before I blacked out and the ambulance took me. What an awakening!

Good luck to you, and if you have any questions, drop me a line, I will most likely be up all night too.

WE WONT BE A STATISTIC! I promise.