Thanks both. My emotions were overwhelming and really scared me yesterday. I couldn't make sense out of them. My son doesn't live with me all week as he also goes to his father and also to respite care quite often. I'm used to not seeing him for a few days so it isn't that. I think it's about being out of control and disappointment. Like you said Dailyhealing, intense emotions seem to link to childhood. I can't handle any sort of out of control. I'm more settled today luckily but I can't let myself get into such a state again.