Hey. Giving people trust is hard when they give you reason to doubt. Is there any reason you shouldn't trust your BF? Bottling up your thoughts only make you feel worse inside. Post your feelings in the forums and check out the Bipolar forums along with depression. I'm not so great with relationshop advice, but if you if you want to be with him then I say try to work it out. However, don't feel like you want to be with him because you were comfortable with it, nothing is worse than feeling stuck. Sometimes we all feel empty and sad but there is always a reason to stay here and fight through everyday struggles. You will find the right person for you (if you and your BF don't work) and things will start looking better. It is just a matter of waiting and being patient. I'm sorry for you I hope you feel better.