I feel ya. I really struggle with believing my T cares and that it is more than just a job.

Even though you feel like you cannot help your feelings, there are things you can do. Tell yourself (constantly, if necessary) that your T cares, remind yourself of everything he does to SHOW you he cares.

Does he respect you and your thoughts?
Does he show up on time and/give you your full time?

These are big ways our T's can show us they care. It can seem like it is just them doing their job, but it is more than some Ts do.

Think of all the times he answers your emails and showed no frustration. I know he is showing a different side now which may or may not be the right track, but try to hold onto all the times he has proved his trustworthiness.

Best wishes