With BP and the rest of my diagnosis list, of course I worry about it. If I get overwhelmed and cut, who's to say I won't get a little more overwhelmed and just get it over with? I sympathize with what you have to see working in a coroner's office, I've been at several autopsies and I hate the smell of death and formaldehyde that permeates the building. 15 years in fire and EMS, I saw many attempted and completed suicides. I know what works and what doesn't, so if I ever decide it's time to go, I'll be gone, no questions asked. So yes, it worries me a lot during the times I feel like there might be something to live for. During the dark times, not so much a worry as just waiting for it to happen.