My problem is a little bit different.

I ask indirectly for what i need (in email usually). But when I'm there in session and she offers (say, to sit next to me or if i need a hug), I say "Thanks, but I'm OK."

It sounds sort of passive agressive, but I don't think that's what it is. I want support and connection with her very badly. But when it comes down to having it, I'm afraid that I'll get too attached and it will be too hard down the road when we terminate.

Once in a great while I accept a gesture like a hug, but it's rare and is usually followed by feelings of anxiety.

I'm so scared of letting her mean too much and then losing her.