thank you all so much
i'm feeling more or less the same. just lying in bed under the covers. refusing to leave the house or talk to people. need to be preserving some energy.
i guess things don't make sense for me right now. i mean how do you go on when there's no point? people get help so that they can go back to their normal lives. i have nothing to go back to. everyone hates me. i hate me. thats a lot of hate.
my aunt was about the only one i had left. and she just confirmed all my fears and more.
i'm sorry i'm being depressing.
you're all amazing & inspiring people. i wish i knew how to be that strong.