maybe it is useless to tell more,i vent.and been a string of strikes recently.
mom is not on my side when involving outsiders,she's on their side against me.maybe because i am a mental patient,which makes her lose face.
plus the current family i am in is not original one,a combination of my mom and an elder.he,i think,don't tie to my mom emotionally much,he just need a care on living.so he is also an outsider.they're all snobbish,and i am weak,weak draws bully,they're just material,i am still in build,so i am spiritual.so finding faults on me,it's the same with his visiting adult kids.and mom isn't with me.
let alone the outsiders outside the family.
abandoned by the family and outside it.
i really try to be good,try to nice,not bothering any one,still bad results.
i take meds everyday,i am a real patient,but no one treat me as one.
i know i don't have positive symptoms,just pesonality problems,weak dealing socially.couldn't file in any item in people's mind.
don't know what i'm saying.