Sometimes girls have asked me out, but I've always said no because of my social anxiety which they were not aware of.

I just can't imagine ever having a girlfriend now. I'm 33.

I just can't imagine.

1. Having a first kiss - I have never kissed anyone so I'm going to make a bad impression
2. First time in bed - as above
3. Socialising with her - too hard. I get worn out with a 30 minute conversation. I can't be around someone for hours at a time.
Etc.