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Old May 09, 2012, 10:03 AM
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Originally Posted by franki_j View Post
it's been like seven hours and she hasn't emailed back.

I am freaking out.

I honestly feel like if she does not email me before session, ... then I am ending therapy.

I honestly can't deal with the obsessing and the fact that I feel that I am going to get screwed over for liking someone too much.

I would rather be in a position that is not this vulnerable, where I am not freaking out over someone's email.

If she does not respond it is over.
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Originally Posted by franki_j View Post
I am just imagining her reading my email and thinking how annoying I am and that I am just another client and that "F**k it" she can just let me know in session about the bill.

I am hoping this is the case because then I can have an excuse to not see her and stop obsessing.

If she doesn't email back I would do a lot of grieving but then I would be done and closed off again and no one could touch me.
Franki, this reaction is really important to work through. You have written a lot of important stuff above that would be really good to share with T. The key points seem to be being vulnerable and obsessing about a quick response and then reading into this lack of quick response, all sorts of negative things about yourself. If you work through this with your T is will be very beneficial for you.
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