I think what makes it worse is that I work in a hostile job environment. My bosses absolutely hate me and are constantly threatening to fire me. I am definately bullied. In a month I have my "90 day review" because to them I'm such a crappy employee. Plus also I have "monthly meeting" and all of these things stress me out. They are aware of my bipolar but instead of helping me with accomidations they want me to just "get over it."

I really, really, really need to get out of this job but if I do then there will be 0 income for my family. I can't do that to my kids. So I'm terrified to quit and terrified to be fired, but I also hate it so badly I am drowning. I feel like I'm trapped in a bear trap. Either I chew off my leg or sit here and wait, either way I'm screwed...

So going home to no help after being in hell all day I feel like I have no safe place for me. I have no home anymore more. I have no where to escape. I used to be able to go home and feel safe. Now everywhere I go I feel alone.