You are not an idiot nor are you a needy baby. And yea for figuring out a way to distract yourself from the original reason you emailed. Give yourself credit. I have asked the therapist if I suck at doing therapy - she always says no - why do I ask her to reassure me when I basically do not believe anything she says? It must be somewhat reassuring at least in its consistency. So asking for help, even in an awkward way, seems not the the worse thing a person can do.