Nope, not an idiot or a big whiny baby. Just someone acknowledging a need, asking for it to be met in a reasonable way that is consistent with and respectful to the other person's boundaries. Sounds normal and proper to me!
As for distracting yourself, well, whatever works to help you cope (maybe an awkward way, but at least not so unhealthy!)
Go ahead and look to see if there's an answer. It's OK! The point of sending it was to get an answer for support or reassurance or help, wasn't it? So it's OK to look.