So I requested an in-between session with my therapist yesterday because I just needed it. Called her work cell phone on Sunday did not expect for her to answer it, thought I could just leave a message. She was out walking in the park with her husband, but said it was okay to call and she would call me back when she got home...which she did and she gladly scheduled an extra session with me. So yesterdays session was the best session ever. I was able to really open up to her regarding my feelings for her and all of the Mom issues and abandonment issues I have always struggled with. I told her how much she means to me and as she gets older I worry that she will just retire and I would never see her again. I have been in therapy with her for over 20 years. She has had such a profound impact on my life that I never imagined could have happened but it has and I feel blessed to know her. She has literally helped me change my life for the better. She explained to me that she is not planning to retire anytime soon but said she hopes to retire before she is 90!! She is in her late 60s. I am 52. I told her that I feel so connected to her, we have similar interests and viewpoints on the world. I told her I felt lucky to have had her in my life for so long. She says she does not believe in luck or chance but feels that there are reasons people come together and this is one of those situations. She assured me that when the time comes for her to retire we will work out a plan and that she is not opposed to seeing me afterwards on occassions, and talking with me on the phone, but emphasized that while in this therapeutic relationship that ethically she needs to hold the boundaries and remain open and objective to my needs and my needs only. I told her that I felt sad that this mothers day she would be without her mother. I asked her if she was close to her mother and she said yes, very close. She had tears in her eyes when she said that. I told her that I never experienced that closeness with my own mother but that with her I have felt protected and cared for and loved. The session went 15 minutes over time. I was the last session of her long day. At the end of the session she hugged me and said some nice things to me. I told her I wished i did not have to leave. She hugged me again and said that she was glad that I was able to open up and tell her some of the things I told her. I felt on top of the world when I left out of there - It is so good to have a therapist who is as kind and caring as she is. She has been practicing for 40 years and she says it is not a job she does but a calling in life.