Only you can look inside yourself, Angel can theorize/train/think/feel/intuit until the cows come home but you are and always will be the expert on "you" because you are the only one who can say what is going on with you. Angel can have all the theories she wants about you but as far as deciding what you will/should/might do, she is clueless because that's your purview, not hers. Angel is only in charge of Angel and needs to decide what Angel wants to do and quit pushing you away with her trying to tell you about you when you're the expert!

We learn from experiences and examples and Brenda was a long-time friend and love, showing you how friendly and pleasant women could be to get to know; Angel should be grateful to Brenda! My husband is divorced and it took me a couple years to help him see that all wives did not have to be critical and dissatisfied with who he was as a man.

I would quit messing with what you term subconscious or the unconscious or anything you don't now know and I'd quit other people from trying to mess with your head and trying to tell you about you. You may decide to ditch Angel for Brenda in 5 years; it does not sound likely to me but I don't know that I'd want to be around Angel if she's not going to concentrate on our life together, here and now and making it the best life together she can. I don't see that her parlor games are of any help to you? If she has decided you are going to hurt her because you want to be with Brenda and doesn't like that, she needs to get herself out of the relationship; not make it your problem.