I think I know what you're talking about. I have very, very intense feelings towards my T who dropped me about 3 months and who I just saw again for the first time yesterday. It was heart-wrenching. Maybe we are coming from entirely different places but I don't understand why you would want to leave right now. Wouldn't you want to work things out with them? I've heard the same thing that a lot of progress can be made when there are strong emotions.