I am just feeling so depressed and so worthless. Just because I feel that way today (and have been feeling down for the last two weeks at least) doesn't mean that I'm falling back into a depression, right? This is just one of those things. My T and I are . . . shoot, I don't know what we are. I still cannot get over being embarrassed and mortified about the discussion a couple of weeks ago. And that discussion was pretty much what triggered this . . . whatever it is. Depressive episode. Let's call it that, rather than depression. The marriage counseling really seems to be hurting rather than helping also. And mother's day coming up. And my mother not calling me ever even when I send up her favorite cookies. And talking trash about me to anyone who will sit still to listen.

But, I can shake this off, right? It's not forever. One foot in front of the other.