Pbutton, it has been said a bunch, but rather than being stupid, it actually is a good idea to ask for help when needed cuz you won't get it otherwise.

As to distracting yourself, I think it's totally routine to switch focus between content and process in therapy. Of course, it can get pretty meta when you start looking at the process of looking at the process of looking at the content. (Isn't recursion fun?) It's all valuable content as this thread, hell, this whole psychotherapy forum demonstrates.

I'm happy you put yourself out there, and it sounds like your T wants to reinforce your behavior by being so responsive. He's probably all happy you wrote. You know how Ts get about that kind of thing.