I am really in a bad place. It's like I can see myself slipping into the darkness, but I can't or won't do anything to stop it. Why can't I just go and volunteer at that orphanage. It is the whole reason I am still in this city, but I can never get there.

I am so tired of Asia. I keep thinking that if I could just get to Europe that things would be better, but would they? Travelling isn't going to solve anything is it? That realization has turned my trip from enjoyable to misery.

I don't know what to do. Locationg is not going to solve my screwedupness.