I can relate to that feeling. I feel when I'm working myself out to no end it's all good because I am not thinking of my depression. However, at night I feel like I don't know what to do with myself

I guess the one thing I can say that would be helpful right now is that, it is best if you focus on what you must do to get better instead of stressing out about possible what ifs. Easier said than done I know, but with my therapist this has been a helpful tip, sort of like day by day until you don't feel overwhealmed to think further ahead.