calmhope, Ok your problem is real and, I feel, life threatening.
I'm not getting the sense that a health official or doctor has been involved, other than public health that saw you maybe once.
Is this true?
I'm not a doctor or any kind of 'public health official'....this is just my opinion....as a fellow patient...
Reach out, you have....but now is the second step.
Seek out a psychiatrist, a medical doctor (M.D.).....I feel that is important....they have only tools, but medications for recovery.
If you describe the symptoms as good as you did here, you should be on your way..............
Good luck...calmhope....but..
Post me with your results...and keep in touch...Y :-)