I had a disconnection from my therapist 2 weeks ago and it has been really, really difficult dealing with the anger, pain and fear that was the consequence of that. I feel more in control of my feelings than I did last week but I also feel a lot more depressed.

I am aware enough to know that in the bad times I generally learn more about myself than during the good times....so I can see a positive...and I am proud of myself for going back to therapy and attempting to talk openly at a time when I felt very vulnerable......but I don't think the depression is in my mind and can be helped by these positive thoughts - I think it is in my body. My body is really crying.