Powercord came for my laptop so I can tell you I didn't drop off the face of the earth. Things have been pretty bad lately. Got in major argument with the in-laws and hubby thinks it may be best if I just don't correspond with his family at all. Apparently his mother thinks I'm evil and manipulative and everything I do is in some malicious attempt to ruin their lives. Is it bad that I kind of wish that were me goal in life, cause now I have all these plans of things I could do. I won't, because despite their feelings, I am not evil incarnate. Ever since this happened I'm having insane hotflashes, dreams I don't know are dreams until something in reality contradicts them (Their stupid things but it bugs me cause I thought they were real), and if I'm not distracted I feel like I have cuts all over my arms that are a few days healed, (I use to SI), and if I don't distract myself from it my arm muscles strain until they become paralyzed. My arms are so sore and tired (like I've been working them out all day). It makes it hard to do anything. I want so badly to escape my life right now. And I feel like someone is spying on me but I'm too tired to care and am wondering what their motives are and if they are going to try and use this information against me.