For several reasons I have had to cancel therapy for the next 2 weeks then T is on leave for a week. So 3 weeks without seeing him. Last time it was so long was at xmas when he was on leave and I got in such a panic about it. I dont know whether its because this time Ive initiated the cancelling, but I felt a sense of relief that I dont have to suffer the anxiety of going to see T, being so vulnerable in session, the "closing up" when the session ends and all the emotions I feel in between sessions.

Just wondering if you think this is normal or a good/bad thing?