i know exactly what that feels like. last week i had to cancel this weeks appt due to scheduling conflicts and i was SO relieved for all the reasons you mentioned. and T is going to be gone next week so it was going to be a 2 week break. Buuutttt then i decided that while its easier to not deal with all the emotions of therapy, I am there for a reason, and if it was easy everyone would do it. So I decided to keep pushing forward and called and was able to cram in an appt for this week....i still feel some relief that T will be gone next week and I get a lil' break.