Your post is NOT pathetic, we (or most of us) deal with "Hell" almost on a daily basis, you kind of develop a "craft" over time (with patience and perserverance) in not letting it engulf you, sticking with a pdoc's care and a talk therapist can be the most useful tools in developing the power to not let it take you over.
Also, I want to correct you, besides not being "pathetic" you are NOT "selfish", you have a need to talk to others, and we are here, we try to offer support, sometimes some of us are caught in the web and can't always be productive in support, but when we can we try to offer it here at the forums, it is appreciated it greatly when we can support, but there is no obligation to have to
You are welcomed here to talk to us, maybe one of us or all of us can help you feel a little better or ofer some insight fromour own personal experiences.
Take care now,
DE

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON