this probably seems ridiculous considering i had therapy this morning, but i really miss my therapist right now! it's been like two hours since i left her office, and the "missing" feelings have been increasing each minute that goes by. i actually can't remember the last time i missed her this much! and i have no idea why it's happening today.

i'd say the session was pretty average. we covered a few topics that have been bouncing around for the last few months, so nothing out of the ordinary. the hello/goodbye were both good, so nothing abnormal there. the weird thing though, is that i feel like i keep smelling her! she doesn't wear perfume as far as i know, but i feel like i keep smelling her on my shirt. i have no idea what that's about, and it's making me miss her like a thousand times more! it's almost like i got some of her energy on me when we hugged, and then mistakenly took it with me! weird.

the only other thing i can think of that's semi-related, is that i told her i feel like i haven't been as good about connecting with her lately - in terms of asking how she's doing. nothing super personal, but i'm usually better about saying, "hey, how are you? did you have a nice weekend?" and i haven't been doing that at all the last few months. i've actually been feeling afraid to for some reason, like afraid she'll tell me she can't answer. she's never like that, but for some reason, i'm fearing it now. so i guess it's kind of like i'm missing her, even when i'm actually there with her. maybe that's why it feels even more pronounced now that i'm not with her.

i don't know, but i thought i'd feel better somehow if i wrote about it here. thank you for reading!