I've been discussing this with friends who tried to explain. They all have a different take on what self esteem means.

One say you have bad self esteem if you think you are bad at many things you actually are not bad at. That made sense to me. But then I don't know, is good self esteem when you think you are better than you are? LOL.

I feel (mostly) that I'm a worthy person, even though I know I have some weaknesses that others can tolerate, but I can't... So in a way, maybe self esteem isn't a good scale for me, maybe I should focus on other things.