It's true and it is a constant issue for me - women don't seem to like me. Since high school I have become acutely aware of the the fact that most women want nothing to do with me, or don't find me dateable, and in high school I was involved with a 3 year conflict with a female that was difficult and dominated those years for me, involving the police, being hospitalized for a month or more, and a personal vendetta against a staff member at our school which led to the school prohibiting him from being around me…I hate that man.

Truthfully, it seems like no matter what I do, whom she is, where I am, or what I say, I never manage to progress anywhere with women, the usual result being that I met them once and they disappeared off the face of the Earth thereafter or that they didn't like me from the start. In fact, I have never once initiated conversation with a woman or approached a woman and it end positively for me, it literally always leads to rejection and other negative experiences.

Whenever I attempt to understand these issues, women, and relationships all I seem to encounter are contradictions and vague non-explanations. The weird thing is that when I was bitter, mad, frustrated, rude, and wanted nothing to do with women and relationships is when women were most attracted to me and I was doing the rejecting, but now that I want to connect with someone and have a relationship, I am universally and unanimously rejected…@#$%&!!!!

Frankly, I feel like I have lost all hope of being able to connect with a female and have a relationship, having mentally resigned myself to a life of being alone, which describes the life I have now and when I was younger. I've been told I will find the 'right woman' whom is capable of loving me or even liking me after a few days of knowing each other, but my mind runs off statistics, numbers, graphs, and formulas, not inexplainable, spontaneous, miraculous experiences in the future that lack a solid basis in reality, while simultaneously contradicting those same individuals' earlier statements about being unable to predict the future. I believe I am unlovable as much as I believe that I am a failure. Oh, but I am told I need to be confident and if I believe I will fail than I will, but all that is nonsense to me, because I fail no matter what I do.

Seriously, though, why don't women ever like me? Because I am socially awkward due to Asperger's Syndrome? I'm sure there are worst things than that, but women seem to write me off anyhow. I've always felt that if I had lots of money women would like me more. At least then I would exist or be somewhat attractive to women…

Excerpts from a website that describes how I feel perfectly:

"[Some] Asperger people simply do not bother anymore; they have been rebuffed, rejected, excluded or tormented so many times that they no longer try to connect with other people, preferring to avoid opening themselves up to such painful, seemingly-inevitable experiences. It is a sad fact that this can start very early in life; even at a very young age, children can sense differences in others, and can be incredibly cruel. By seven years of age, I was such a social outcast because of my social deficits that I was suicidal, and used to wish that I simply failed to wake up one morning in order to escape the daily torments. While things are not always so extreme as to drive an Asperger person to quite this level of desperation, being an outsider is nonetheless the norm.
"Other Asperger people never give up their search for acceptance, but more often than not those people are simply rejected over and over again in one way or another. More than in any other case, they are not avoiding positive social contact by choice; they simply cannot find anyone willing to be friends with them. It is extraordinarily painful to confront the fact that no one feels that you are worth being friends with, that you have so few redeeming qualities that others reject your initial overtures; that whatever excellent qualities you possess – intelligence, loyalty, a sense of humour, kindness, etc – none of it is enough to make up for your social ineptness. It is no wonder so many give up and withdraw into themselves, abandoning friendship as a lost cause. Even those with initial success may find that friendships founder when they reach deeper levels of intimacy, and their lack of social understanding betrays them despite their good intentions."