I really spent so much time with my daughter, worked very hard to read to her, help her learn around her dislexia, I met with all her teachers, took her to Yale for testing over the years, stayed on top of her teachers and trainers with her riding. I tried so dam hard. She did do well and is strong, I just had so many obstacles I was not prepared for, but I did walk away I did speak up, I did try to get help, I did try so hard.

She is doing well at her job and is confident, I just don't like that she was hurt too.

Dealing with alcholism in a family is very hard on the family. It was very hard on me in many ways. I loved my husband and tryed very hard to be patient, he is sober for 20 years now, but it took him a long time to finally grow up. I guess I was kind of raising two children and never really prepared for the things that compromised my ability to just do life like I wanted to. I didn't know what a binge alcoholic was, however my father was one, so I thought it was normal for a man to get drunk on the weekends like that. Now looking back, it was hard on my family too along with my CSA from siblings, well, I never really knew safety.