my session was a week ago ... we finally had a session where we were moving forward after a very hard few months. Our connection is getting stronger and i've been working hard on allowing that connection to happen ... allowing myself to care for her - which is so amazingly hard because there is so so much fear in the way of that...

but i think i've turned the knob and opened the door towards that caring - the door is only open a crack ... but i can see the light on the other side.

a couple of months ago she said i was making 'the relationship' work. at the time i didn't believe her, but today, maybe i believe her just a little bit.

i think this is one of the hardest things i've ever tried to do.

my therapy is working.