It worked! I went to the bar... Which I don't normally do. Just me and a couple friends. It was different. I think I want to go out and see a movie. Maybe distract me a bit more. That seemed to be the key to something. Will it eventually stop working? And I have to continue doing new things though?

It was just fun being sociable. I think I am just so scared of being hurt by all the negativity that I stay alone. And then I get even more depressed...