Hi morningstar,

I'm sorry you're feeling so lowly right now. I can definitely related. I"ve struggled with school since high school, and I really understand how hard failing can be and how things seem like they'll never get better. Is there anyway you can reapply for the honors program? Perhaps talk to an adviser about reapplying? Also, most universities have some sort of mental health center on campus -- perhaps you can go there and talk about the way you're feeling? They might also have groups on how to build healthy relationships. It might be something worth looking into. Today, my pdoc recommended that I try to walk for 30 minutes everyday. It has all sorts of benefits, including improving your mood.

I know things seem rough right now, but try to remember that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I know it doesn't feel temporary right now, but you have no idea what great things you will go on to achieve. Breakups are tough, but it doesn't sound like the relationship was very balanced. Focus on getting yourself feeling better and the rest will start to fall into place.

Take care of yourself