yes, rainbow - the feelings are really strong! i agree that it's a little more typical to miss them after session, but i can't remember it being this bad.

we didn't come to any conclusions on the topic of asking her about herself. she indicated to me that it was okay to ask her if i wanted to, but she didn't say it directly. i can't say why exactly, but i definitely got the feeling she was comfortable with me asking.

this is sorta related, but she's also been really funny about our 'goodbyes' lately (like for the last few months - at least). she hugs me for a long time (and sometimes super tight!) and then when we separate she looks at me for a few seconds (i don't usually look back), and then we walk to the door and say goodbye/take care, and then i walk out and almost always she says something additional. sometimes i'm literally walking up the stairs and have to turn around to hear/acknowledge what she's saying. i'm sure it doesn't sound like much, but it makes me feel like she really cares about me and is sad to see me go. i'm sure i'm making more out of it than it probably is though! i'm not sure why i'm mentioning it, but there's something about it that's making me feel "pulled" back to her or something. i don't know though.

well, thanks for the reply - i really appreciate it!