IRL...I have H and 2 young adult kids. My daughter is away for 2 weeks. H works 2 jobs, and my son is just busy. Not that I would ever want my kiids to care for me. I am a loner, always have been. I barely leave the house anymore, just for T once a week and that's been a fail. I do have my dog, and she's always a big comfort. She sees me.

I can call T, if I do he would say, "come in, I'd love to see you"...that's what he always says. I just get there and fall silent. I can email, but even that is hard right now. Everything is so raw. I am off meds so that's really f'in with my head.