yes, it is a really nice goodbye. it's just unusual for me to see her like that, like she's actually sad about me leaving. she looks kind of vulnerable or something, which i never see from her. i'm not quite sure what to make of it, especially the part about her saying something after i've already left and am walking up the stairs. sometimes i feel like i can't handle it, and i just keep walking. yesterday, i think she wanted to say something, but i didn't turn around so i think she just watched me walk away (i could still kind of see her out of the corner of my eye, and she hadn't shut the door yet).

i'm not sure what to make of our hugs either. sometimes when i really think about it, i feel like it's abnormal to embrace for so long. it's only like 20-30 seconds, but that's a long time for a hug imo! i know this is off topic, but if anyone would like to share what their hugs are like with their therapist - please do!

also, thanks for all of the replies. you pc people are the best