Constantly beating ourselves up, is not a good thing. Although it's something I often do myself. I'm learning with the help of t and a really really great guy , that it's okay to feel what we feel. We are allowed to have our feelings, we have a right to feel what we feel, and there are often good reasons for our feelings. I'm learning to explore my feelings, to understand and accept them. This is by no means easy, but it helps when you have some sort of support system.

Sorry I kinda got off topic there, but I think I'll still post it ... in case it helps someone else. Hang in there Trin!