Um.... maybe you seem to... for whatever reason and that is not to say to judge you... cling to the thought of other keeping you safe too much.

I heard from few people that suicidal thoughts are not curable. That our brains will be telling us to do so (those thoughts be so tempting too). Maybe it is possible to learn through therapy or whatever.... to tell your brain to **** off.

"My brain" tells me to kill myself on every damn cliff or high building. I am in fabulous Capri (cliffy place) with fabulous Italian guy and my thoughts go "let's leap, it will save you a lot of troubles".

I don't know what it is... but nobody can really "help" you with that. Yes, others can keep you safe... but these thoughts will happen again.

What are you seeking in PER besides being kept safe... are you hoping for some solution to your trouble? Ways to prevent these thoughts in the future?