Itchy, it DOES sound like you need someone different. I am just amazed at the T's lack of response to your suicide plan. It's stunning. Not sure where CE is coming from on this, but your T sounds like an idiot. In terms of finding a T, Psychology Today has a web site that has a locator service for therapists, if you're in the U.S. Getting referrals from people you know is probably the best way, if you're up to it. I was really lucky with my first T, and just made an appointment at the college mental health clinic and was assigned to him. I had a great deal of difficulty finding someone else when I tried to therapy later in life. My current T is someone my mother in law sees and she told me to see him.

Good luck. Hang in there. It can get better. Please don't lose hope.