((((Such is life))) ((((i'm mentally ill))) i've imagined ripping their heads off. I have VERY violent fantasies. I could release all that rage and defend myself now the way i couldn't then. Usually there is no gun, no weapon. I want the satisfaction of killing them with my
bare hands. But sadly i do know this, they AREN'T living happy comfortable lives. They preyed on us because they are sick. It's not an excuse , but i KNOW their minds and souls and spririts arent happy, joyful and at peace. In my mom's case , she is severely sick. She is a special case. She has paranoid schizophenia. My pdoc says people with this dx are rarely homicidal or violent. My mom is just one of the few. For her i have a lot of pity mixed with the rage. She held me while her bfriend sa' d me and she also commited sa. Her creepy bfriends i have less pity for, but in my mind, i know their minds had to have been broken as well. Hugs to you both.