I am willing to bet that many of us are suffering like you. Have you seen a doctor or therapist yet ? I am assuming yes because you have xanax. It was the sleeplessness that made me take that first step to getting help. I do use xanax every once in awhile but I also am on zoloft daily. That has helped TREMENDOUSLY.
I also bumped up my vitamin intake - and this has helped with my mood and energy (mainly vit b complex, b-12, and D plus magnesium and calcium) so if you are wanting an added boost maybe try taking some vitamins as a start.

I agree as well that NO one around me understands or knows how to help. That is why I am here.