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Originally Posted by hankster
yeah so that theory is wrong! so you have actually seen your mom be happy? i've seen my dad be mellow and kind, but not the mother. she was just always very tense. she was emotionally available, but the emotions she wanted to share, I wanted no part of.
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um, i dunno...her "happy" is not what i would consider happy. i dont think she's ever been diagnosed but i know she has some kind of mental illness......she was always extremely tense, angry, frustrated, anxious, and consumed by her OCD'ness. I dont remember her by any means as happy go lucky, calm, stable, steady, etc. She can be very non-realistic in her emotions. Just very reactive. I think thats where T came in to my dream....she has portrayed lots of characteristics I wish my mom had....stable, steady, calm, self-assured, etc.......and in the dream she was very loving and affectionate. I know my mom loved me but she just wasnt capable of it in a typical way, unfortunately. ....writing all that put a knot in my stomach and a lump in my throat
