Hi everyone, i'm new here.

I'm on vacation and I think it's making me worse than if I was at work. Like today my boyfriend left for work at 6am and i heard him shout out, like he was missing something, and then he left. I'm a light sleeper so I wake up almost everyday when he leaves for work, then fall back asleep. I couldn't help but be extremely anxious about what happened. Why was he upset?! I haven't been sleeping very much because the medicine i'm currently on makes me wake up at odd hours(going to dr on monday) so that is probably keeping me on edge. I get so anxious about everything; if I have to go to an appointment, if I have to meet up with someone and don't feel like going...and it affects my moods tremendously.

I don't have the stress of work, but i'm still depressed. I feel like everything I do I am still depressed. If i'm not looking forward to something big in the immediate future, then i'm depressed and think what is the point of life. I'm not suicidal. I just always think "what's the point??" I'll be happy for a night or a portion of the day if i'm doing something fun, but once I get time to think alone, I just feel like there's nothing exciting in life to look forward to because everything makes me anxious & worried. I am too anxious and too indecisive to make a career switch, which I know I want to do, but I am paralyzed by my anxiety.

Thanks in advance for listening. I guess everyone comes here to vent a little bit?