I'm new here too. And I was surprised to find a post already that says exactly what I feel. I don't have any advice, I struggle with the same anxiety and depression. I've been at the same job for 9 years because I'm too afraid to make a move. I get so depressed sometimes I can't even make myself get out of bed to go to work. My husband sent me a text just yesterday after I'd missed a few calls that said "We can talk later". I immediately was seized with fear. "What did he want to talk about?" I had to wait a few hours before I could see him and I was worried the whole time. Anyway, he just wanted to share something small with me, it was nothing at all, but it through my day into havoc. He doesn't understand my depression. He thinks I must be so unhappy with my life and with him. Which isn't true. He is the bright spot in my life, but I was alone evening all last week and depression just takes a hold when I'm alone and start to think. I try to drowned it all out with TV but nothing really helps or if it does it's only temporary. I'm just so tired...