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Originally Posted by 3little.birds
All of it. I don't get what I did to deserve this. What did I do? I can't think of anything.. I try so hard to be the best person I can and be what everyone else needs me to be.. So how come not one person tries to return the favor at least once in a while? How come I'm not good enough to get that back?
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I felt that way ever since I can remember - until a couple months ago ... and for some reason, a light went off over my head, and I stopped being very upset. Many people are selfish and only concerned with their own lil' world.
I started focuing soley on me and being more assertive. In the workplace and in my personal life (my T recommended two books, which I read faithfully and took notes).
Oh boy! At first, I felt soooo uncomfortable. And at times I felt as if I failed miserably! But little by little I am not feeling as uncomfortable...
But (and it's a big one!) I do realize I am a work in progress. I haven't been fabulous about asserting myself (perhaps my delivery could have been better), but I try to be easy on myself about that, too.
Mostly, I really don't care about what most people think anymore. I am not trying to be lovely and perfect and helpful and wonderful to every single person that comes into my life. Especially expecting them to be the same way (I mean wasn't everyone raised with the Golden Rule?

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It's exhausting trying to be everything to everyone. And expecting people to treat others the same exact way.
I hope this helps a teeny bit! It's not you!
You are lovely and wonderful. Focus that energy on you!